Scared

So, it's coming down to the final hour, as it is. Surgery is tomorrow. I'm on the clear liquid diet, which is a bit aggravating to see food here there and everywhere, and not be able to eat it. Just walking past the fridge, there's a big jug of protein powder and two loaves of bread. :'(

Having no food has definitely made me extra tired and cranky. My emotional level is cranked up because of how scared I am for tomorrow.... Most of it is the immediate post-surgery part, like having a catheter and a drain, and shambling around the hospital. Getting my necessary medications in. Wondering what I'm going to be able to do to entertain people coming to visit me.. Who wants to sit 8 hours in a hospital with a person full of tubes? Yeesh. I know I probably shouldn't worry about "entertaining" people, but I can't help it.

*squirm....*